Finally Bothered to Reset my Login
Good Day, All!
To be able to access something I wanted to save as reference, I had to login to my dA account after probably ten years of being gone.
I feel bad that people are still liking my art and potentially following me when I have done nothing to my gallery in years. I don't think I'll be updating any art because I've been struggling to come up with some original ideas for Visual Novels and animations.
My once supple imagination is kind of selective and doesn't like to play with me most days. It will give me cool ideas then is, "Okay, I'm done." So, these ideas don't get properly fleshed out in order to DO anything with them. It's very frustrating for me.
However, I'm actually in the process of trying to gather a writing group for a fan project since I'm having a hard time writing on my own. I was inspired by Jenny Nicholson's idea for My Little Pony gen5 from two years ago when the leak about gen5 surfaced (I only just found it last October because my boyfriend got me into Jenny's channel). Her idea was so amazing that it inspired me to design and draw the main cast, a couple professors, even make a google sheets page of classes and professors. It completely restored my love for ponies that I thought had died out to nothing.
Just as an excuse to animate and create something fun, I would very much like to create a fan series about a pony Hogwarts. I find myself distracted by the lives of the professors instead of the friendship of the main cast. Never really having had a lot of friends, irl or online (the thought of interaction easily overwhelms me), it's actually hard for me to write about friendship and hi-jinks that might ensue. I will note that Jenny's idea reused the same main characters (mane 6). While I have used them, they are vastly different than gen4. I went for more color schemes of gen3, including that Twilight is now Twilight Twinkle, not sparkle. Rarity is actually a goth Blossomforth who demands she be referred to as "Rarity" because she feels that name better represents her uniqueness. Princess Celestia isn't in it. Instead, she's Queen Sun Sparkle.
My boyfriend found me the subreddit for mlp fans, and I saw that the EquestriaDaily forums are still active, where I would like to post about this fan series. I'm hoping to find other writers, VA, and any people interested in helping make something fun. It's not a paid project, so I don't really know if anyone would want to bother.
I don't want to post to either site until I have my main cast puppets drawn and set up in a nice character sheet like Double Rainboom did for their puppets. It's hard to rally support for something when people don't see that you're serious enough for them to devote their time (and fair enough). I imagine I'd need concept designs for the school grounds, but that's something I also need help with designing because I don't know what would be useful, later, that would need to be established in the background from the start.
Instead of flash, I'll be using CrazyAnimator 3 because it had a humblebundle sale a few weeks ago and seems to create animations very similar to flash. This program is probably too expensive for anyone who didn't get it from humblebundle. But, I am the one who plans to animate the characters, so I'm not concerned about being the only one with the program.
I'm trying to find motivation, but I have few days where I don't feel like garbage (springtime pollen has me not feeling well and most days battling unrelenting migraines) and am up to digging out my scanner to scan the paper and pencil character drawings. It's also hard to power through not feeling well when I'm the only one this project affects (other than my boyfriend has expressed a lot of interest but doesn't offer ideas because he doesn't think he's creative enough).
Trying to write on this stresses me because it feels so important that my brain seizes up when I try to think up ideas. All of my ideas feel stupid and unusable. I don't really know how to write slice of life stuff. Everything I write has more of an epic movie feel, but even those ideas I've had have felt stupid. I can't figure out the end result of anything.
And, the idea starts with the first year of what's essentially high school for three of the ponies. What do you do for four years of ponies interacting? It's overwhelming and why I need help.
If you don't think I'm a lost cause, and are interested in being a part of a my little pony fan series that's set apart from the shows, let me know.
Too Long Since Last Entry
Anyway, I saw TRON Legacy last night. I LOVED it! No, I haven't seen the original movie, but everything was so cool about the new movie that I didn't have to. But, I am going to look it up so I can find out the backstory on the Grid. Another one of Disney's live action films I will buy as soon as it comes out on disc. Although, I haven't gotten Sorcerer's Apprentice yet, but I'm waiting for Christmas. I loved that one a lot, too.
Unfortunately, I probably won't have art gifts for my friends, this year. I've procrastinated too much (and prepping for the My Chemical Romance concert from last week ate up a lot of time). I'll try, but I don't see it happening. I don't love you guys any less, I'm just bad at managing my time.
Oh, yeah, the My Chemical Romance concert. AWESOME. Gerard teased the crowd asking if we wanted them to return for their tour in the spring. I hope they do, and I've been checking their main page every day about six times to see if they've announced any new tour dates. I'm sad that way. I can't believe I haven't been this big a fan of them all this time, though. I jump onboard almost ten years into their music career (now, I've liked their songs for much longer, since about 2005—and even bought the Black Parade in 2006—but never dug deeper than that). They really are creatively amazing guys and seem pretty levelheaded and polite.
MCR has spawned three new original fictions for me, and that's pretty odd (and clearly is reason why they've become almost tied with my top favorite band of all time). TRON Legacy helped with the latest one, but I'm still sorting out my ideas.
All in all, things have been great for me. I'm loving life and am happily doing so (that's a major switch from just a couple years ago).
If I find out that MCR is coming back, and not the same day as the anime convention I plan to attend, I will be working on finishing my Maka Albarn (soul eater) cosplay.
Crud, now, HOW long has it been?
I AM still working on the same fanfic for Ben10 as I have since January 17th. I'm still not even close to being finished. I have 8 parts, and each part is about 10-14 pages each. Until I complete the story, I will not be posting any of it. I tend to then not finish a story when I do that. I've finally realized why. When I get comments or faves on a story, I feel satisfied then no longer feel the need to continue. It's that immediate gratification thing. This time, I'm not allowing myself that option. It's a longer wait for those who were waiting to read the story, but they'll actually get a finished product. I work on it a lot in between other projects.
What other projects? My cosplay items that I'm making. I will be attending the Saturday of Anime St. Louis, this year, as Minato Kusinagi (the protagonist of persona 3). I only have a few weeks remaining, and I'm still working on the costume (and, all I had to do was create the jacket, belts, boot covers, and weapons because I bought a pair of pants for it as well as have a white button down). I haven't even started on the jacket, I did cut out the main portion of the over belt (I drew most all the rest of the pieces onto the fabric but haven't cut them out), I have the main portion of the under belt made (it's 'buckle' is finished except for painting the edges so you don't see the white then it needs acryllic sealer sprayed on it), the boot covers are only in pattern form, the Evoker needs sealed and painted, and the buttons for the jacket need aryllic sealer sprayed on them so their barpins can be applied.
Today, I worked half on my fanfic until I got stuck. That's when I worked on cosplay things. The rest of the evening, I've been off and on like that as well — writing some, then sewing some.
I've also read four books within the passed three weeks, or so. I now have another favorite author to add to my list. Kay Hooper. I love her Bishop/Special Crimes Unit series.
Why have I been so absent from dA? Well, other than when I'm at home, dA give the computer I'm on viruses. So, I've been avoiding it at all costs. There is something to be said for dial-up in the fact that the in-page ads can't load properly. If I bought a membership, it wouldn't be an issue, but I have too many expenses right now to do that. Maybe, someday. Well, maybe, someday. (teehee, that's a reference to a song, but only a few people may get it)
You Mean I Have To WAIT until MARCH 2?
I still haven't finished my story for the series, but what else do you expect from me? If I made a list of my fandoms and WIP stories I have for each, then made a list of the ones that are finished, the WIP would dwarf the othes by far. Hmm, let me do a five minute version of that right now (because I'm so pumped up by the news of the dvd release).
This is a list of stories on THIS account. TwistedTuesday isn't counting towards this list.
Tin Man - Two WIP stories
Harry Potter - Three WIP (two of which from 2006 and won't be finished since DH was released between the time I started them and now)
Teen Titans - ... more WIP than I can count. I finished one. *unenthusiastic* yay
DP - Four WIP ( "Phases" included) one oneshot finished (the one inspired by Teardrops on my Guitar)
Ben 10 Alien Force - Five WIP, one completed
Meet the Robinsons - One WIP, a oneshot completed
The Incredibles - Three WIP (all crossovers, but only one WilburxVi)
ALICE - One WIP (as mentioned earlier)
Invader Zim - One epic WIP
Sky High - Well, it started as story, then was briefly a RP, now it's future is unknown.
PRiS - One hiatus WIP, one finished (merely because I was tired of writing on it. Not a big, big fan of this fandom. I have brief moments where I revisit it, but never enough to put any effort into it. Now, all my scifi notions are directed to Ben 10.
Twilight I briefly had a WIP but quickly tossed it aside. So, no WIP for this fandom. I may end up doing something with Nessie, but don't hold your breath.
Yeah, that took longer than five minutes, but I realize I dont' have as many fandoms on this account as I thought. TwistedTuesday has my bulk-idea fandoms. Halloweentown, Supernatural, and Beetlejuice.
Wow, I completely got off point there. I might have to make a special trip to the store on the second of March just to see if they have a copy of ALICE.
Recesses of my Mind
I've been "hard" at work drawing and writing Ben 10 Alien Force themed things. I have some that I'm very excited about. I am also looking forward to
Ben10-KH crossover sequel. Her original was awesome!I'll try to get back to my Phases story. I haven't given up on it, so don't fear. I'm just not in the mindset to work on it properly. I'm too into Ben 10 (again) at the moment.
Last night, I spent all evening drawing some Kingdom Hearts inspired Ben10 pictures and now have a fleeting idea to do something with them. To me, they're too awesome not to give more thought into what they're for. It's not really a KH story, mostly because I have never played the game (merely looked on kingdomhearts.wikia.com and watched video walkthroughs on youtube). So, I don't feel I could bring that epic world to life. But, I might bring in the main characters just because I like their design and weapons. Now, all I need is a good "soundtrack" to get me pumped up. So far, I only have Breaking Benjamin - "So Cold," Skillet - "Hero," Lacuna Coil - "Entwined."
Hmm, just noticed as I wrote the song name Breaking Benjamin. In the Ben10 mindset, that so makes me want to create something angsty.
I have about seven Kevin and Gwen drawings from the past month and a half that I need to get scanned and colored. But, most of them have stories attached to them that I hate to spoil with the drawings (but, I may go ahead and do so).
Snow is on the horizon for us, tonight.
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